Always afraid to ask myself “is everything fine..?”

 Time always move on, It’s me who is frozen
 I don’t notice changes around me,
 I always think things are same, but it changes
 I’m at the same place before looking into the emptiness
 Things around me changed a lot, friends come & go
 Everyone came for a purpose
 But I don’t know why I don’t remember things
 My whole life kept on changing & I didn’t realized
 Many times when I go through my thoughts
 & suddenly all my emotions gets rattle up
 For a moment & I feel to break down
 But I always pulled myself out from that
 Pretending everything is ok & fine
 But always afraid to ask myself “is everything fine..?”
 I fool myself and people around,
 I don’t want to show how week I’m
 I always try to stare at the sky & I feel everything is ok
 I just don’t like changes, but changes always happen
 I always thought to do what people want me to do
 But I never thought about what I want in my life
 I never valued my emotions, never thought about passions
 Always tried to keep others happy
 Never thought about what makes me happy
 Always tried to fill my emptiness with whatever I got
 Always tried to get addicted to them,
 I know there is another way of life
 But don’t know which path to go...